haha finally was able to meet up with my dear cloney. hoho it'd been long man ): 

anw, had a really really great time bonding and chatting and all. and adelicia came along at around 4+ too. so glad i queued for like only 5-10min. haha it's either that or the company made time seem so super duper fast. poor jim, had to queue for like 30min, and he was grumbling so much. but oh wells, life is short! should have fun, haha went for the ice cream twice in the end. eh, i was so nice okay, accompany him to queue. (: had a great chat as well, saw weiling. omg. and adelicia said smth, which i shall not repeat here. but it's quite funny.

anw, there's some sort of misunderstanding happening around in sch. this girl is like pissed at me for smth i didnt do. sucks. and it's like i cant apologise cuz it'd show tt i did it, and yet she's unwilling to listen. HOW ): 

and, i think i just screwed up someone's personal privacy space - which is the blog. in case you are reading this/happen to come across, please dont be shocked tt it's me, and no, im not the flower girl whoever is she. im not your wife either.

come to think of it, * is rather cute.

to my dear pokpok: hang in there k! i hope everything will be fine, i know it will be. (: hahaha i was quite shocked, yet kindda expecting ur reaction to be like this on the phone today, but fret not! still got me. (: jiayou jiayou! we shall go play wii and eat chocolate buffet one day. yay! 

p.s i hope you are doing fine at the other end of the world (literally!) 

grr. the more i think of it, the more i feel that ** is so hypocritical. oh wells.

shopping with mummy at vivo ytd was the bomb. i bought so many new tops to wear, hehe no worries on having nothing to wear anymore. it was so surprising tt so many people were at vivo ytd, and i didnt even see a single person. vivo sure is big eh? 

boring day today. went to sch, supposed to finish my history essay, chinese compo, and study for econs test. but but but, the slacker here didn't do a single thing at all, and ended up eating ice cream instead. mango + strawberry + oreo is a disgusting combi, dont ever try. 

left sch early to meet adelicia. gosh. i waited for 1h 30min for her to arrive, and i was as expected, super duper pissed. i really hoped she culd at least tell me tt she was gonna be THAT late, so i can maybe just find a place to sit and do my work. crap. but nevertheless, had much fun roaming around. met edlyn, jingwen and jiaying at long john's, haha really could see how everyone had drifted, but oh wells, it was great seeing some familiar faces around. i really really cannot wait for speech day yay! it's gonna be one of the final final times where the whole cohort will get together again. 

anyhows, i signed up for this package thingy at browhaus where we went to pluck eyebrows today, so instead of paying $17 for threading, you pay $10 only, yay great deal! so if ur gonna go to browhaus, and want to save some $$, just tell me, and i'll tell you the secret "code" (: 

anyways, i kindda like walking around alone. at first, i didnt get why adults love to shop alone, but now, haha yeah it keeps my mind off things, and everyone aint free to go out with me anymore. either that or they dont want to. so yea, self entertainment.

1. i can't wait for fullerton chocolate buffeet! ): 

2. i kindda miss *

3. i kindda miss ** and the times we shared although ** was such a mean and hypocritical toot.

4. i can't wait to meet my dear cloney and dee and bbutt for free cone day tmr! :D :D :D 

5. i miss so many people in the world

6. i wonder if they feel the same

life is a sad affair.

why can't we have all the time in the world. ): 

free cone day's on tueday!! :D i can't believe some people out there don't know what is free cone day. hahahaha. okay, im being mean. 

piff. hopefully i can finish studying my econs test, do a chinese compo, do my history essay, do my PI draft 3 within 1/2h so i can go out for the shopping spree of the week! haha. haven't been going out to shop with mummy for quite some time, hopefully i'd be able to get many tops and preety stuff. 

went for another singapore arts festival briefing ytd, before heading off to study with sylvia. i was productive at starbucks and ben and jerry's, but it wasn't the case anymore at esplanade library. haha. gosh, everyone's falling in love. why oh why. everyone's getting attached before i even know it. why oh why. are u guys sure you wanna lose your freedom so fast? 

i bought another bag on impulse ytd. it was really really cute! and cheap. hahaha. $7.50 for a bag, but it was plastic, and everyone said it couldn't last. i regretted the minute i bought it. shit man. but nvm, it shall be my official beach bag from now on. (: 

1. was a busy busy day. rushed to amk hub at 11am to deliver the fwa stuff, sign contract and gobble down something before going to crescent to collect the 300 notebooks, 100 files, 400 bookmarks, and then rushing down to tj to send all the items and eat my lovely yogurt, and then rush down to the mica building to attend the singapore arts fest briefing, before going down for my cut hair appointment. sheesh.

2. i am utterly pissed and disappointed that the sec1s this year are so.. no comments. can't believe they are so vocal. well, it's to the point that i feel like slapping a particular few, so i doubt being so vocal is a good thing anw. at least it's better than being so passive like a particular few, ask questions also dont want to answer me. really felt like slapping them. seriously, esp you and you. ask you shift stuff "HUHHHHHH" so much. den keep going like "why am i here?" "what are we doing this for" "this is such a waste of time, i want to go home now". if you aren't committed to i&e, den don't join. all these is like part and parcel of everything. wait till you go clean the store, you will just faint i think. just because you are a rich kid, get pampered everyday, come sch this kind of stuff dont need to do la! even yuqi does it okay, wholeheartedly. you have no right to complain, seriously. and it's like wait till you see the insects at the back which chews up the plastic bags man, be happy that they dont chew up your hands. gosh. ask you shift stuff to the foyer, take one gazillion years to come back. so that you can shift lesser stuff right? and it's like you order the sec2s around? oh please, cause u are taller than them? you dont have a right to do that by the way. i really really was on the verge of bursting already. and it didn't help that most of them didn't cooperate. ask them go foyer den come back, just stay there only. sigh. okay maybe there was a communication prob, that one i understand. but still, can you guys at least try to cooperate while working together, you guys are a team know. i&e is not made up of one person, trying to order the rest around. tsk. and give wrong order somemore. sigh, there's still like 2 more years before you try out for comm la, be patient can. if you're trying to impress me, i can say that you've failed terribly. if you think im just a senior, not a teacher you can bully me, well i can just tell you that you are wrong. because, although im easy to bully (by a certain few, okay fine, majority), i am still your senior, and you've only been here for like what, 4 months?! really really, we have a certain protocol for doing things, dont just come in here and push things your way, disrupt everything, and in the end think ur the best. well you are wrong. furthermore, everyone has such a tight schedule to meet. you'll find out more when there are more sales coming up man. luckily mt wasn't there. if not, u'd have been sent to exile in siberia. tsk. and ask you shift stuff up the taxi, u go talk to your friends sitting at the foyer. if you dont feel like doing, just tell me, and go home. dont waste my time and energy trying to make you cooperate.

seriously, i have no shit clue why each batch is getting worse and worse. i really do not want to see the day they step up. wah, by then i might be an intern JC3 coming back to teach or smth. so i'll have the right to scold them la, hehehe. :P

3. i am really excited and looking forward to being a volunteer at the singapore arts festival! whee!

4. i am so sick and tired of trying to keep in touch with people. it's a sudden realisation that if i dont contact anyone, i dont talk to anyone online, i dont call/sms anyone, no one will come and initiate a convo with me. life is a sad affair. i dont see the point of such a one-way thing. sigh, like what adelicia said, i'm just so sick and tired of organising everything. seems like if i dont meet you, you wont bother coming to look for me to meet me. seems like i'm just not part of your world anymore. "make new friends, but keep the old. one is silver and the other is gold". what rubbish. im just waiting and waiting for the day that damn phone rings, and i see your name on the caller id, but for the past few weeks, it never happens.

5. why is the whole world falling in love? are boys really better than girls? sooo many people are like going oooooh over guys, well all my close friends at least. and not say i never see the photo of the other half before, let's just say they are not my type. im so afraid they end up hurt, because they will. there's this nagging feeling that tells me they will. anyhows, since no one wants to listen to anything i say, den let them find out for themselves. there's nothing i can do la really. it's just that once you get hurt, it's super hard to bounce back again. i know. because.. haiya nevermind. and and and, i do not trust ah bengs, ah peks, playboys, fake-gentlemen, flirts hanging around with my friends. okay fine, maybe i do take these friendships a little too seriously? afterall, for some friends, i've only known your for like 4 months, and the longest in this list is say, 3 years? sigh i really do not know.

6. please pardon this emo post. i just dont get why friends dump their girlfriends behind once guys appear. or let's just say, i dont have much friends? ): 

7. some things are better left unsaid. 

8. many things are better left unsaid

9. aiya, i'll just shut up from now on. 

10. cause everything is better left unsaid.

bye.

the times when we conned mt for max brenner's treat (okay fine, it was me), the sentosa planning day, the swensens comm outing where we insisted on paying, and the waiter happily accepted our nets and not jim's credit card! hehe. and all the many more events and rubbish we planned, like cleaning up the mama store (and getting locked inside), celebrating bdays (teachers and students), staying back till freakin late to do the scrapbook for teacher's day, running all around singapore trying to find the perfect louhei, running all around singapore trying to source for comm outings, running all around singapore trying to source for venues for camp, places to play games etc (yes, we do run around quite a lot). not to mention, all the weird sales we had, like for cca open house, open house to public, the amazing 50th anniversary jacket sales, the fwa clearance sale etc etc. sigh. those were the days. D: and also, not to forget, the panic and stress that came along with everything, the "eh, let's settle this first den talk okay" kind of irritation, the "i think this one better.." kind of decision, the "no! listen to me" kind of persuasion. hahahaha i dunno how we survived together, but we surely did! and i really learnt a lot from you guys ): sigh, can truly say sec3 and 4 comm days were one of the best in my lives. given another chance, i seriously won't mind running for, and around, all for comm and for i&e all over again. ): in fact, i'd be so glad to re-live sec 3 and 4 all over again. ): 

nostalgia. nostalgia. 

when will our annual may babies bday bash come? ):

as we go back in time.. i&e camp'07

further back.. comm outing'06

"running ahead" lni=e camp'o6

HAHA camp'o6

and further further back.. the time when we were still young and innocent :D

anyways, i just found a blog that i was not supposed to find. it's DAMN HILARIOUS. haha now i finally know what that big guy is thinking. seriously, they just seem anything but him in person. HAHAHA i really cannot stop laughing.

ponning sch on friday yay! but it's gonna be damn hectic, cuz im gonna be rushing to ank hub to dump the fwa stuff on the display shelf, den fly to crescent to get the consignment stocks, den fly to tj to dump the consignment stocks, den fly to the MICA building for the briefing for volunteers for the singapore arts festival. woohoo! im really damn happy to be a volunteer, imagine all the free shows i get to watch. hehehe. but sadly, no one wants to do it with me, cuz of the common test crap that is gonna be in end june/july. oh seriously, it's only 8-10 shifts la! what's the world thinking. zzzz. fine, or maybe it's just me. hahaha. i wanna pursue the social sci research thingy, but i guess i need straight a's for all my subjects for both common test and prelims, and that's v impossible. 

shoot me.

anyhows, this blog is undergoing some revamp, i kindda dislike the skin now. 

thanks to all my pals for all your encouragement, haha at least there's a reason for living.

i try to make it a point to keep in touch with my pals, meet up once a week or smth, but sometimes it's just so damn hard. after smth that happened like recently, i realised that if i didn't make the effort to contact people, no one would contact me! ): okay, this is just like some selfish thought. please ignore! 

past 1 month in tj was wacky. was so emo everyday, cuz i just hated sch so much. ran for council, had to be in sch by like 6.45am, only left at 7.30. was hell. but i didnt get in due to some weird and dumb reason. (ask me if ya wanna know why, and maybe hear some rants) but who cares, im much happier now. i realise that most people, okay, some people, majority-ly, they just do things cuz it will look better on their portfolio blah blah. as in they dont do things cuz they love doing what they are doing, or that they believe in what they are doing, but rather, doing it cuz it will help in their uni admission and make things on their portfolio look nicer. pardon the straighforwardness, but i just cannot stand the superficiality. as in, why cant you do things you like? 

sigh. when i was in crescent, everything was so simple, so innocent. all we had to worry about were just like "omg o levels coming" "i need consultation" "die, i dont have a life" "omg, want to book hotel room tgt for prom?" "let's stay back for night study" and minor bits of eyecandying here and there. looking back, everything just seems so minute and real. unlike life now, competition so stiff, all everyone wants is just to climb higher and higher and higher.

okay depressing stuff aside, i've joined kidsREAD! its this programme by the nlb where you read to the kids and all. so fun. and also young PAP. haha now you'd think that i'm some propaganda person, but oh wells, i hope it'd be fun, the intro session is this coming sat. i'm also trying to find out how to be a volunteer at the singapore arts festival this yr, lois is gonna be part of that, damn damn cool. not to mention, i've also signed up to be a volunteer guide at the parliment house, where you give NE tours to kids visiting that place. cool, i always wanted to be a guide of some sort, was thinking more of the zoo or smth, but nvm. anyhows, im really excited to start all the activities above, at least they take my mind off things. haha. just hope that i still can have time to meet my pals. i dunno if it's me or what, but the habit of going out and hanging around/bonding/studying has kicked in, and i never reach home before 7pm since... say my study buddy days at the crescent library? haha. always have this urge to go out after school. nowadays, everyone's getting so busy, only can manage to meet up with adelicia, yuexi, eddy, sylvia just to name a few.

i miss delight. and a05. and my cloney. and my study buddies (i hope we wont drift!). and elly welly. and my i&e comm. and you, you and you.

come to think of it, i think i have very little close, genuine friends. and that's bad.

ah, i miss crescent. 

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